It's time to reflect on the last month. Here I am, sitting in my bed, following my nightly ritual. Whenever I come back home late from Philly, I stop at the Wawa on Bustleton Pike to get myself one of those nice, zero calorie, Powerades. Normally, when I travel with my bagpipes, I NEVER leave them in my car overnight. However, tonight there was a skunk prowling around my car when I parked so I figured it best to not go to my trunk. I'm a little nervous about leaving my pipes there. If you know where I live, please do not rob me tonight; I'd be heart broken. Thanks. I don't really use the lights in my room, so I keep the TV remote right by the door so that I can use it for light. Normally I throw a movie on before I get writing. Tonight is 1948's Key Largo. I take my desk chair and move it next to my bed to act as my nightstand. I grab my computer, prop my pillow up against my headboard and start thinking about what I should write about. The last month has been pivotal for me, so I guess it would make sense to write a bit about that. A more personal entry.
Firstly, some bad things happened to me early this month. I made some mistakes and alienated some folks I really care about. It really got me down until I had an epiphany staring at my grandfather clock one night. I won't rehash this stuff, but if you're interested, just go back a ways and you can read what I've already written on that subject. Long story short, I was able to use my mistakes as fuel to examine myself, admit my faults and, in turn, gain strength. It has worked tremendously. I am no longer afraid to express myself. I care what other people think, but not enough to let me alter the way that I do things. With this growth, I was able to hone my self discipline. I finally had the drive to start eating healthy and exercising. Since July 1 I've lost 25 pounds -- I'm proud of that.
I've, obviously, started writing again. These blog entries are a way for me to start exercising my creative mind. I've always wanted to a novel. I've started a bunch of times, but have never been able to really get the ball rolling. As a test run I have started writing a treatment for the Pete and Pete reunion special idea that has been floating in my head for a few years. Hopefully this will allow me to segue into my novel writing.
I've put aside some time for scholarly pursuits. I have taken to reading the types of books that I read in high school: William James, Skinner, Nietzsche, the list goes on. It feels so good to read these books that are fodder for the mind. I feel smart; I am smart. I also devote some free time each day to study the French language books that I bought. The accompanying cd's are played in my car instead of music (some of the time).
Long story short: It's never too late to change the road you're on. No matter what we have done, each and every day going forward is an opportunity for growth. It's lousy to waste them. Take each day to make yourself better. When you are sitting in bed (as I am now) your brain will feel alive. It's such a magnificent feeling to have your mind perfectly in tune. You can't let uncertainty stop you. Just embrace life, and let the chips fall where they will. If you want to be successful, I suggest that you follow this advice: Rest your troubles above, put your problems behind, and keep your eyes forward. If you do this, you'll at least be able to keep your mind at ease. You can't control other people, but you can control yourself. So, please, remember just worry about making yourself the best person possible. If you do that, and mix it with a little prayer, things might just work out. And if they don't you'll at least know that you gave it your all. Believe in yourself, that's the place to start.
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